Spiderman

ok, so spiderman is a great movie....spiderman 3 tho is very annoying.

i really wanted to go and see brother believe me tonight...but im stuck babysitting...again. All I have to think about tho is Monday...50ish hours away...cedar point...a whole day with the one i love. :) ahh couldnt get any better...

so work kinda sucked today. altho, when others do bad...and i do good, it makes me look good. and i like that. is that bad? i should be trying to help others be better and not expect anything like praise in return. ive always had a problem with that. it makes me a bad person...not someone i wanna be like or someone God wants me to be :( its something i need to work on.

so i have to post this. Spiderman 3 may have the best almost-purposal scene. the idea is sweet, but it doesnt work out. ugh...but it was a sweet idea. thats the thing that bugs me most about that movie.

ok, well, im gonna read tonight...i had a nice nap...so im pumped. im gonna text kev a lot tonight to make his night the best ever! I love him!

Getting better...

Things are slowly starting to get back to good. We finally got one of our cars back. Which is really nice. Kevin and I are back to good...which is also very nice. I think we just have different opinions and beliefs on a lot...and sometimes that can be very crazy. but i think we know how to work through our problems....the solution?....im always right...and he just needs to learn to accept that! haha....nah...only kidding. ;)

ok, so i finally have today off. I opened the past 3 days, and i open the next 2 days. i was so exhausted last night that I slept for 12 hours...from 12 -12...lol.

I have a work meeting today. and im excited because Kevins gonna be there! yaaay!

maybe doing something with kevin tomorrow. he has a game, then we may go get stuff for a picnic. We r gonna try to have a picnic on the beach at cedar point monday! how cute will that be ;) hehe...I looooove him!

ok, well, im all ready for this meeting. so i dont know what to do now! lol....i cleaned the bathroom a bit today...so now im just sittin here waitin for mom to get home from getting flowers...kevins at work today...and ive realized that the olny works he knows how to text today are "oh yeah" and "awesome" LOL

Ok, well, cyaaaa!!!
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Surprise!

Ok, so its been a really bad past week.. so last night i was playying yahtzee with mom a little after midnight and we heard a knowk at the door. i couldnt tell who it was. so mom and i were really scared. i mean, come on, what would you do if you heard a knock on your door at midnight. so mom answered the door and it was kevin! he brought me flowers and candy...oh and berts bees. we had a rough couple days and it was so sweet of him to do that. it was like the first time in my life that i have almost cried because someone did something so sweet for me! it makes me soooo happy, and i couldnt stop smiling all night! Kevin and i both have our issues...and faults. but we are so good together we can work anything out, and i think thats how i know that our relationship will work forever. :) Today church was great. They talked in SS about seeking God while going through troubles...which fit perfectly. Having no cars is getting realllllllly old. Got to ride a motorcycle today@ it was sooo fun! right now, im getting ready to babysit...bLAH! hopefully kevin will call! only a week til CP!!! woohoo! ok , well cya!

Bad Day #500 something

ok, today sucked. we now have no working cars. busy day at work. registers didnt work. things arent the greatest with kev. things tend to come up in my life. or i never say the right thing. or anything at all. i dunno. my parents have told me that im not good at listening. so... i dunno...maybe that carried on to my relationships too. i dunno. but im tired of it. thats been the one thing thats relieved me of all my stress...but now stressing about that too...its too much...so, its hard to just not stop caring...but, i cant do that. i just hope kev doesnt give up on me...even tho, i wouldnt blame him i guess...ok, well, im gonna go do something...i guess...

what a looooooong day

Today seemed to go on and on and on...especially after 3! geesh...went to work at 11....had fun the first 4 hours...but after the split..it sucked. boring...boring...boring. cleaning galore! then got off at 715 and mom didnt come til 830. they forgot me! geesh...and my cell died...lol. went to the landing pad for about an hour and a half, then we all went to Coldstone for a bit. got moms car back...i cant sleep...and its midnight...and i have to get up in 4.5 hours...ut oh! haha...oh well, 3 hours of sleep wont be bad. hopefully hangin out with some friends tomorrow night...off work @ 1....then helpin mom...then hopefully somethin fun. ok, well im gonna watch a movie...or read...who knows...ceeeeeyyyyyyaaa!
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Rain

Rain, rain, go away, come again some other day...or how about...NEVER!!! geez....went to Owens baseball game tonight and it rained the whole time...and then it poured...finally they called the game...
I had today off. Got up at 6ish...then at 11. Did facebook for a while and then went to Branans witih mom to check on her car and to get mine checked out. Her car is almost done. And they think mine will need a transmission. GRRR...
Then we went to findlay. Cashed my check, and then got ice cream. Went to verizon. Got a hot pink phone cover! Love it! Then I went to Kevos to get moms wedding picture.
Hung out with Kev last night. We had a blast. I think this Sunday him and I are going with a couple friends to go to the Drive In in Kenton. That will be fun! Came home and cleaned a bit. Went to Owens game. Helped mom make supper...then just talked to her for a while.
I really dont feel like writing tonight. So I dont feel bad for keeping this short. Because dum dum Kevin doesnt EVER blog....sooo... :) oh well, I still LOVE him...ALOT!!!!!
I wanna use my new slushie maker!!!! but i need ice.
I work stupid 11-8 tomorrow...ugh...i hate that shift. I guess they got a 89% on the basic they had tonight...stupid Carp let the beef touch i guess...oh well, im glad for the dumb thing to be over with. Im tired of stressing about something so stupid for 4 straight months...
Ok, well im gonna go back to watching HSM3...hopefully, kevin will call soooooon!
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Worst week ever...FACT!

Ok so this may have been the worst week ive ever had...in my entire life. NOTHING, nothing has gone right. My phone died, my moms car died, so she took mine, now i find out that my car is dying. So, all this equals a veeeery stressed KK. And to add to that, I dont get to see much of Kevo, thanks to our schedules being opposite. The only time i get to spend with him is when hes chauffering me around. :(Im just so fed up with life now. Its so hard to stay positive when everything is going downhill. Ive never been so depressed in my life. But slowly, things are looking up. My phone just now came by the UPS man...the same one from Arbys! haha, he even recognized me! So, at least now i have a phone. Still no car...but phone!!! yyyaaayyy...And im off tomorrow. I think thats a good thing. Opening was great with Amber today. We had a great talk all morning. It was just what i needed! Between that and Kevin cheering me up so much last night, its been a little better to deal with all the crap thats been going on. Kevins in Kenton today. Which means no texting or calling :( and he doesnt get off til 11. Which means no hanging out for us tonight...or tomorrow. So, I didnt eat breakfast or lunch today. I have had 2 iced mochas...uhh...not healthy?! But ive been so stressed its like im not really that hungry. Which is fine by me! Im sitting here on my fixed laptop watching Fairly Odd Parents with my brother Evan...good show! haha. We got paid today...but i dont know if checks are in yet! So my new phone doesnt have any contacts or pics on it...so its picture time!!! Oh yea! I think Kev and I are going to go to Cedar Point on the 22nd. which really excites me! it will be a whole day that we will get to spend totally all together. No one else bugging us, or anything. just the 2 of us, having fun :) i know ive mentioned it in these blogs before, but i dont know what i would do without him...he has a way of making me laugh...even in the worst of times! I LOVE him! SOOOO much! So, therefor, a day at CP with him...Priceless... :) ok, well im gonna go do something productive, like get ready for church. I need to go to church....maybe it'll help. I havent been the best this past week with reading devotions everynight before bed...so, i need to get bakc to that...pk, well TTUL!
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List of things to do

1. Call Owens, set up meeting 2.Call Verizon, ask about plan 3. Meet with Mandy 4. Finish talking to parents well, I guess the list doesnt seem to be that long...goals...SAVE MONEY!!!! and have a garage sale for all my crap?! hahaha

I <3 Kevin!

Well, the title of the day is pretty self explainitory. I love the way I feel when we are together, i love when we are apart and i miss him so much, I love having him at family get-togethers, I love looking forward to doing things with him this summer, and I love how one small note from him on FB or a text can make me much gooder for the day! I hope that i am lucky enough to get to spend the rest of my life with him. And for some reason this shouldnt happen to work out, then i can only hope to be friends with him for life! But, I dont think I'll have to worry about that :) He is the most helpful person ever! And i know that he is alwaus there for me when i need him. I know that my family and I put a lot of stress on him. I just want them to love him like i do. Well, not exactly in the same way haha. But I never mean to make him feel not good enough...but i know it does. But he is good enough. Too good. And in the end, its me that has to be with him...not them :) We may come from 2 totally different families, but we are soooo happy together. So, I miss him when we are away, when we are together, and hearing his voice on the phone...:) I love you Kevin!

So lifes been pretty crazy lately...a lot of stress from the job, parents, and some things even with myself. But I just need to step back, and let God lead me. And things will work out tons better! I cant plan my future, only He knows that.

Its finally getting warmer out! YAaaaay!

2 baseball games tonight! Im going to owens...moms takin ev to his.

I have 2 days off! Mom and i are going shopping tomorrow!

ok, gonna go watch the Bachelorette.!

God Bless<3

Keys Pleeeese?!

So, I dont work til 430 today, and the only thing i have to do is make pretzels for owens class....sooo sleep in! Well, not so much. Mom called at 8 and said she locked herself out of the church and i needed to come pick her up. Got up, ready, and 1 min from being at the church she called and said someone with keys had shown up...GRRR...so i came home, determined to go back to bed, and saw that Saved by the Bell was on. So of course, it being the best show ever, i had to watch it! so i am still up. I think im gonna go outside for a while. its so nice out. Work on that tan. :)

So 5 of my friends got jobs at Cedar Point this summer. some asked if I would come with and work there. they are still looking for more ppl to work. I really want to but i feel like I have too much holding me back here. I have Kevin, who would be one and a half hours away, and theres Arbys...the place that i dont know if ill ever be able to leave....change is hard...yaknow?

I schedule classes thurs for owens. Thats good! I am excited! To finally do something. Altho things will get a bit busier...but...

Well, got 3 amazing shows to watch tonight. Finale of Dancing with the Stars, Idol, and the First episode of the new bachelorette. So if I dont text from like 11-2am...im watching those...Go Adam and Shawn, adam for Idol and Shawn for Dancing!!!!!

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Tired

tired1
adjective
1.
exhausted, as by exertion; fatigued or sleepy: a tired runner.

Tired is exactly what i am today. And I even had a 2ish hour nap...I think ive gotten like 9 hours in the past 3 days...for real...when am i gonna get caught up...maybe next week, when I have some later shifts at work. I wont be opening much in the next couple weeks. Im working some mid shifts to help out with both lunch and dinner for a contest we are having at arbys.

Babysat my bosses kids last night til 4 am. It stormed so bad...and if you know me, then you"ll know that i am terrified of storms. They have some really cute kittens and they are bringing them over to give to us....well, at least 2 of them.

Not too sure what im gonna do tonight. Im babysitting. the brothers. I may clean my room and read a bit. I had ice cream today...which sucks,....im having a hard time trying to eat healthier! It sucks...i really want to and am so dissappointed at the end of the day when i realize i didnt do very well. :( so maybe i will ride the bike for a bit! well, i think ima gonna go! try to find a way to stay awake!

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New Day,.

So after my last blog...the night turned crazy, and ended up not living at home...well, at least for one niight. Went to Stevie B's ...mmm...but it was really a horrible night...but todays better...much better..

Opened with Dot. We had a pretty ok time...a bit busy...but that happens. Came home...and now im babysitting Ev while mom cleans the church. Church tonite. Then who knows what. M,aybe bed...i didnt really sleep much last night. Just woke up off and on...maybe got and hour and 45 min,,.,,maybe...

All I can say is that I am so lucky to have such amazing people in my life...my friends, Kevin and my mother. And I really do thank God everyday for that...

Pay day today as well, but it all goes to my car...OMG!!! I am sick and tired of being poor...or at least tight with money...it sucks, but thats life.

Allrighty...time to help out a brotha with homework! Later!
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sigh...

I really dont feel like blogging. Not much has happened really. Pretty Crappy past 5 days..some good parts tho! Mothers day was pretty fun with mom and the boys....lets see, works been...uhh...ok, Jeremy came home today...kinda fun to see him, went to kevins..now home...yup, pretty boring..ok, goodnight

Tic Tac

Im so mad. I wrote a huge long blog for today, and i went to publish it and it said it couldnt and it erased it all, not i gotta rewrite it. UGGGGGGGGGGG!

So its been a busy past 5 days!

Saturday Kev and I went out with some friends. Crackel Barrel. Mmm. Then we went to Bluff to take a walk. It was so nice. I love doing things like that. We walked thru the campus. Then watched Yes Man.

Sunday mom and I slept thru church. We went to Hong Kong Buffet and then out for ice cream cones. Then we went to the resevoir. It was so beautiful! The Kev met us at 6:30 for church. Kev and I went and visited Amanda at her new apt. Its really nice! We all went to Coldstone. PB&C shake...mmm...but so not healthy :( Then Kevin went to work.

Monday I opened and Mom and I cleaned the church. I mowed and mom and I ran. It feels good to run again! My phone also came today. Its great to have it back!

Tuesday I opened with dorothy. JK is back to work now. Came home from work and ran. Then went to Owens baseball game. they won 11-1. It was awesome. Owen is awesome. I think he is gonna be one of those ppl that are good at whatever they do. Then we went into the Bluff to get pizza and i ended up hangin with Kev for a few hours. Came home and watched the Biggest Loser. This one girl has lost 125 lbs. Why cant i just lose 15...ugg

Today im off. I just got up. Mom is cleanin the church and Kev is golfin. Id like to go to Findlay today but i dont know if ill get to. I need to do some mothers day stuff and id like to use some of my birthday giftcards!!! SHOPPIING!!! Gonna run as soon as mom gets home. I think we are gonna do 4 laps today! Church tonight!

So me and Kev are coming up with a list of 20 things to do this summer! We will post it on here once we figure it out.

I have this book of One Minute Devotionals that i have been reading. Todays Bible verse is Mark 9:1...

Well, better go!
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MAY!!!!

Im horrible at this whole blogging thing...but its ok, because you are too kev. :)
Well, I had a great 19th birthday. Jacki , Gloria and me went to the mall on the 25 and did some shopping...then met up with Kevin, Amanda, and Kelsey for dinner at la Charreadas...It was a BLAST! Then we all went bowling...Richard met us at bowling too...we bowled a couple games and then went to Jackis and went in the hot tub with mark.
The next day, my birthday, we went to church then grandpa and kevin came over at 4:30 for ribs and cheesy potatos. Then the rest of the family came over for strawberry jello cake and ice cream...oh, and presents. I got lots of giftcards and some really sweet cards ;) Kevin and I sat out by the campfire and talked til about 1am...then it got pretty cold.

Ok, so todays the parents 10 year anniversary. Grandpa is over here babysitting the boys and I, we are having a pretty good night, we oplayed some games and watche d Homeward Bound. Went to Evans last soccer game tonight and it poured down rain so hard i was dripping wet and very cold. Kev worked 9am to 5 am today...it sucks ....i havent gotten to see him in forever...I miss him! But tomorrow i think we are doing dinner with another couple then maybe a movie...I cant wait! I work 8-4 tomorrow tho. :(

Last night mom put my phone thru the wash. So it doesnt work. I am using my old pink razor now :( but they are sending me a envy 2 on may 3rd.. :))))

I worked 1130 - 230 today...only 3 hours but it really sucked...

Im pretty tired, but i really dont wanna go to bed yet...still too early....

My neck really hurts tonight...I dont know why.

I've been reading the Bible every night. I really think it helps and I enjoy learning more and am upset that I ever got out of the habit.

New and Revised goals:

• Starting tMonday...eat healthier...for real....gotta get back in that habit
• Reading the Bible once a day
• Watching what I say...I never used to say bad words....or bad things...back to being nicer
• Save $
• Being a amazing GF
• Loveing my Job and doing my best there...because I really do love it

Ok, well Im gonna go join the Bros and the GPA, talk to you later!

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Recap of 18

Its been a while since ive written, but a lots been going on.

On the 26th I turned 19. And i thought id use this blog to recap the wonderful year I had of being 18.
18 brought on many things. Starting with graduating HS. Something that I'll never forget, but also something i would never wanna go back to. Also, the summer of my 18th year was the best summer ever. So many good times with friends. Campfires, looking at the stars, trying to visit every coffee shop in Findlay, swimming, spending time with family. Working 30+ hours a week, meeting new friends at work. Then in the fall one of my best friends got married, I also felt something i've never felt before when a good friend left. But I also found Kevin. Something that i would never take back . :) 18 also brought on a lot of responsibilities at work and at home. I got promoted to team trainer at work and full time babysitter at home...haha. At first it was hard for me to take charge at work, but its becoming easier everyday. It gives you that good feeling of pleasing your boss..Also having a 6month boyfriend has changed things alot. Never have i been so happy, but at the same time it can be so frustrating. You try to make someone as happy as you can, but sometimes it seems like your best just isnt enough..Like maybe they want more out of you than you can give...and hard times are horrible. You want things to be perfect but you have to realize that they never will be. And that makes you want to just give up....but then you think about life without that person and somehow it makes you motivated to think positive and know that things will work out if they are meant to.

I dont know what God has in store for me as a 19 year old...college wise or boy wise...but I know that I'll figure it out...

Ok, that was the recap of being 18. Standby on the birthday parties blogs!

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Imm BAK!

Ok, so I guess its been a busy past couple of days...and by couple of days...i mean 4 days.

Thursday and Friday I worked 11-7 at work...which really sucked.The days were so loooong! But Kels and I had a few good times. Like listening to "Single Ladies" on backline and dancing. And playing Bun Baseball...

Friday I got my car back...which was awesome!!! Its so good to FINALLY have it back! I dont feel like a kid who needs to be driven places anymore:) Kevin came over tonight and we laid on the hammock and looked at the stars and had a good chat...i loved it! We will definitely have to do that more over the summer...

Saturday I worked 8-3. Then I helped mom clean the church. Found out some really horrible stuff thats going on at our church and had a crazy text convo with my pastor. I really hate to make assumptions. Went to the Carpenters to babysit @8. That was fun, the kids were fun and asleep by 10:45! haha..watched Shrek3...got home around 330am.

Slept in today and didnt go to church. I went to the Bluff...saw kev for a few min and then went to Findlay to get glue, crayons and a clear nosering for work...hopefully now Carp will gett off my back...lol. Got home and now im babysitting the brothers. Made a good supper and had a rainbow sherbert push-up! yay! And a week from today, I turn 19!

just called work and talked to Carp, I guess his girls really had a good time and he said i could come back! :) and he also mentioned that I work 11-7...again....wow Carp, thanks for ruining the night...

Im really excited for summer. So many things to do...fun things...friends come back from college, campfires, waterhose fights, roastin hot dogs and marchmallows...picnics, bike rides, swimmin, the lake...TOO MUCH FUN!

Well, im signin off...LATER!
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5 Days Later and $878 poorer...

Its been a while...5 days to be exact. A lot has happened but I really dont want to talk about it all.

Saturday was awesome! Opened then when I got off work I talked to my bestfriend Jacki! I havent talked to her in FOREVER. She met me and Kevin for Tu Pueblo and walked down to get ice cream. And hung out. It was GREAT! I miss Jacki so much and we never get to hang anymore. She loved Kevin, and said she definitely approves.. I think her and i , and maybe Kevin if he can get off, are going to see Sound of Music at the school on Saturday.

Sunday, Easter, was awesome! Kevin came to our church for the sunrise service @ 7 and stayed for breakfast til 9. Then after his normal church service he came over and went to my familys lunch. We went to Uncle Bills until 6. My family seems to really like Kevin....lots of people toold me that he seems really nice and polite. :) Then we went to his moms and sisters.

Monday I opened with Amber. Kevin took me to work :) I love him so much for that. We were really busy at work, especially for a monday. Kevin and i Made a list of goals today...here are mine

• Save Money, no more crazy spending
• Play my clarinet once a day...even if its only for 5-15 min
• 130 lbs by June 1st
• Look for apts.
• Keep my room clean
• Get Car taken care of
• No More letting work bother me
• Taking a more positive aspect in life

Thats what I got so far....I think its a decent list...And I have been doing really well with playing clarinet!

Tuesday...Tuesday was pretty blah...Opened with Dot. Kev took me again...which makes mornings so much better. Went tanning and came home and did nothing. Talked to mom for a bit. Then helped her clean the house. Went to Kevs and watched the Office. Which was awesome because thats what we always used to do when we werent dating. Haha. The good old days... :)

Todays a lazy day. I have a cold or something. Slept til 12:30 and had Captain Crunch for B'fast..mmmm...I like the berries in it! Mom came home from cleanign the church and told me that my car bill would be $878..!!! Wow..umm...But my parents are gonna help me as much as they can...Went tanning and went to pick up my check...but they werent in yet...but they are now..I have today off which is a plus...i guesss thats my one positive for the day :) Dont really have any plans for tonight. Church...but im not going because i dont want to make any old people there sick. Mom has a football meeting...but I may go to that.. The problems with our pastor at the church just got worse...but i think i believe him...I just dont know what to think somethimes...

Well, I better get going...To get my check...lets pray for a big one!

God Bless...

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-8 pounds

I feel like I live in Washington. Always cold, always overcast and raining. My uncle lives there, thats how i know. Also, thats where Twilight takes place. Which is what i happen to be watching now...as im babysitting my brothers. Which i seem to do a lot....babysit...not watch Twilight...Ive only seen it 10 times...geesh... :)

So, today was interesting. Got up around 6 am to babysit. But i ended up going back to sleep til Owen woke me up at 10. I dont really remember falling asleep last night. hmm....i seem to do that a lot.

I took Owen to see Hannah Montana the Movie today. It was really good! and had some really good songs in it as well. We had a great time. I love spending time with my brothers and ive realized that we dont get to go out as much as we used to.

Went to weigh in today. Lost 7.9 pounds. Im a little dissappointed, but oh well. I feel like ive been eating healthier and excercising more so thats all that really matters. Kevin and my parents did good too.

Came home and went to Bluff. Talked to John, Dot and Brian for a bit. Then went home and started babysitting.

Kevins out with his friends tonight. Lukes and bowling. I think him and i and Jacki are going to do something tomorrow night. Which makes me really happy because its been a long time sincce Ive gotten to hang with Jacki! I miss her! I guess shes going to prom this year...with a guy named Mark...whom i went to prom with 3 years ago...haha...jacki, me and another one of our friends gloria all took turns "dating" Mark in HS...I guess jacki didnt get her share! haha,...nah. they are great together...i told jacki to invite him...itll be a double date!

So Kevins coming to my familys Easter dinner. It should be fun! Sundays gonna be crazy tho...Getting up wayyyy tooo early. I think im gonna color my hair sunday morning too.. I have highlights and they are growing out so...back to the normal hair until I actually get enough money to do the highlights again...

So I was bored earlier and i started reading the last book of Harry Potter. Its the only book out of the whole series that ive only read once. I was just so dissappointed in it the first time...didnt end the way id hoped...oh well, what can i do?! but im reading it again bc i always find things in those books the second and third time around....

I open tomorrow..yuk. But Kevins taking me to work so at least the day will start out good...i open with amber so who knows how the rest of the day will pan out...

Imm...freeeezin so i think im gonna go...but...Ill probably be pretty busy the next 2 days...Ill try to blog but im not gonna make any promises!

Ciao!

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April 9th

Ya ya ya, i know, todays not the 9th...but yesterday was, so lets pretend it is the 9th.

Today I did 3 things...Got up, went to work, went to bed...yup, thats pretty much it..Got up around 10, worked from 11-8. Pretty loooong boring day...altho it was the busiest lunch we've had in a long time....crazy as it seems, i kinda miss busy lunches, they make time go by quiicker. Did a lot of cleaning before and after lunch. I had my boss convinced that Kevin and I broke up! haha...how mean am i...Kevin is off today...and tomorrow, and the next day, and the next....geesh...Last night him and i went to see Knowing...weird and strange...sad....weird...and did i mention strange movie? Then he took me home...he's so amazing and helpful with this car situation im in...Anyways the movie was fun....

After work i came home and put in a movie (August Rush). I love that movie. I remember the time Kevin and i watched it together. I dont think we were together yet..haha...a lot of times we hung out we werent together yet. Haha,. Having a secret relationship was kind of exciting...The first time I went to his apt. we watched Office Space. We talked for like 2 hours after we watched the movie...well, really, he talked...I was much quieter then...ahh...i think that night was when i realized that i was really into him...but since he was my boss, I didnt think it would be possible for us to date....but we started hangin out more and more...and 2 weeks later...he asked me out...i was at church and he was at work...i'll never forget it... :)

Anyways, I fell asleep while watching August rush...oops...and woke up at 6am...fun fun fun...

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Day Off!

Finally, a day off work. Well, I guess its only been 2 days since ive had a day off, but still, 2 days can seem like a long time...

Today my alarm went off at 7:30, and 8, and 8:30, and 9...haha...someone didnt want to get up! When I finally did get up, my grandpa came over. Him, my mom and I all went to Lima. It really sucked to go to the mall and not have any money to buy things. But it was still really fun....good time spent with family...who needs money anyways. It doesnt really make you happy. You think it does, but to be able to enjoy it, you have to have family and friends around too. And thats all that matters. We ate at the Chinese place in the mall...mmm...but with weigh ins coming this Friday, i feel bad for eating :( but oh well, Kevin is doing really good...and so is my mom...i guess i just lack motivation. Ive always had a but of a problem with that.

Got to see Kevin last night...that was Great! I love that i can be myself with him...i love him. He's been talking of moving to Florida for this church job. It scares me a lot that he will be so far away and it will be long periods of time where we wont see eachother...i hope that with our strong relationship and Gods help that we will make it through...and living in FL one day...that would be sooo amazing..its beautiful down there...and I dont want to be in Ohio forever...i just hope that my family understands when this day may come...

Helping Mom clean the church later. She pays me so its not that bad...I'll do anything for money these days...who knows how much its gonna take to pay for my car. Today i called them and they said it needed a new water pump and belt and hopefully the engine wasnt shot... :( great...so far, Ive got $100...haha...woooow...im betting itll be a lot more than that...

Night church later...which i am really looking forward to!!! Then who knows what else tonight.

Just watched American Idol, and Adam Lamberg is going to win....FOR SURE! I'm calling it now....

Oh, and if you are reading this, make sure to check out Kevs blogs too!
http://kevosrandomthoughts.blogspot.com/

Cya Later!

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Brrr...

Im pretty sure ive been cold alll day! Hopefully warm up tonight...

Work was great today...its always fun working with Dot! Plus a break visit from Kevie!

Went to a visitation today...A friend from works mom died...It made me realize how much i need my mom...shes my best friend no matter how much we can disagree...

Hopefully get to see Kev tonight...

well, i dont have time today...gotta go!

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Snow in April

WHY IS IT SNOWING IN APRIL!?!?!?

I'm trying out this new stay positive approach to life...so far...not working out real well. How do you stay positive when it seems like everything goes wrong at the same time. I guess im just thankful to be alive today. maybe i should think of a list of positives in my life...
-A great job (yay for a 92% on our basic today!!!)
-A great family
-Great Friends
-An amazing Boyfriend
-I am alive...
-Its my Birthday month...
-Easter this sunday

I have a lot to do tonight...so this is probably all I'lll write...boring i guess, but you"ll have that somedays...

family coming over wednesday...thats awesome...

Easter sunday this week...that should make this a more spiritual week...i hope it does. And I really do thank God for what he;s trying to do in my life...I'm sure one day Ill figure it out...

Sorry to all who have to put up with my lately grumpy mood...especially Kev...i love you

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Wow...

Today, a totally laid back, lazy, carefree day. got up, went to church...church was great. and for once, i felt totally well rested waking up this morning. even tho i didnt really sleep that much the night before. and i somehow woke up at 5am and texted..(is texted a word?!?!) kevin...which i didnt even remember until i was looking back through texts. and with the mentioning of texts...Kevin will text me when im sleeping and i'll wake up and have these texts from him...and i absolutely LOVE reading them...

Anywho..had Dairy Queen for lunch...mmm...M&M BLizzard...extra M&M's...the best! not the healthiest...but starting tomorrow, is the last 5 days til weigh ins...so its time to starve...starting tomorrow...haha..

Next came a nap...i love naps!

Then...well...I think back for night church...which was awesome! I got to sit with my amazing friend whom i never get to see. and my mom. the 3 of us laughed so much....but its all good. when mom, emily and i get laughin in church...theres no stoppin. :)

Went and visited Kev at work. Em came too..i love surprise visits to eastgate...i hope Kev likes them as much as i love doing it. heat didnt work all the way home tho...then pulling into church to take Em back to her car, my car shut down...i was so scared...but i am so thankful to God for the great timing...in a parking lot...Pastor looked at if for a while...but he got so sick...with his MS.it really scares me and its so sad...anyways...ill have to tow my car...and as for opening tomorrow...i switched with someone so i dont go in til 1030. i hope my car works out and isnt too expensive...it really put me in a depressed mood...but thankfully i have an amazing boyfriend who is always there to cheer me up. I love him...soo much...

Its freezing in this room, so im gonna go to bed...

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Hmm..Title? I guess Blog #1 Would Work :)

Well, I guess Kevin and I are going to start trying to bolg everyday! wow, i guess it would help if i could actually spell blog...haha.

Let's see, today, work...well was work...annoying people asking annoying questions. but i still love my job and appreciate you ,kev, everyday for giving up yours at the Bluff so i could keep mine...i truely love you!

Today, i've decided to not let all of the negative bring me down any more. because if you let it, it can take over your life. and i've realized that i have so many positive things to look forward to. i just need to keep my focus on those and things should be great.

I'm finally going to Owens to work out something for college in the summer hopefully. it was nice to have a year off. i got to experience work at Arbys at 30+ hours a week, spend more time with family and friends, and of course my amazing boyfriend Kevin. But im so ready to get back to school and be one step closer to figuring out what im doing with my life. Because right now, it kinda drives me crazy that i dont know where im going. And sometimes i think that id be ok with being at Arbys forever...but i know that just being "ok" with my situation isnt enough...ive learned that from other people. you have to go for what you want in life so that you can truely be happy.

I'm spending tonight babysitting my two amazing little brothers owen and evan. as much as we may fight...i love them sooo much! and as much as i could go on and on..i should get back to them.
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