Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Recap of 18

Its been a while since ive written, but a lots been going on.

On the 26th I turned 19. And i thought id use this blog to recap the wonderful year I had of being 18.
18 brought on many things. Starting with graduating HS. Something that I'll never forget, but also something i would never wanna go back to. Also, the summer of my 18th year was the best summer ever. So many good times with friends. Campfires, looking at the stars, trying to visit every coffee shop in Findlay, swimming, spending time with family. Working 30+ hours a week, meeting new friends at work. Then in the fall one of my best friends got married, I also felt something i've never felt before when a good friend left. But I also found Kevin. Something that i would never take back . :) 18 also brought on a lot of responsibilities at work and at home. I got promoted to team trainer at work and full time babysitter at home...haha. At first it was hard for me to take charge at work, but its becoming easier everyday. It gives you that good feeling of pleasing your boss..Also having a 6month boyfriend has changed things alot. Never have i been so happy, but at the same time it can be so frustrating. You try to make someone as happy as you can, but sometimes it seems like your best just isnt enough..Like maybe they want more out of you than you can give...and hard times are horrible. You want things to be perfect but you have to realize that they never will be. And that makes you want to just give up....but then you think about life without that person and somehow it makes you motivated to think positive and know that things will work out if they are meant to.

I dont know what God has in store for me as a 19 year old...college wise or boy wise...but I know that I'll figure it out...

Ok, that was the recap of being 18. Standby on the birthday parties blogs!

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Sunday, April 19, 2009

Imm BAK!

Ok, so I guess its been a busy past couple of days...and by couple of days...i mean 4 days.

Thursday and Friday I worked 11-7 at work...which really sucked.The days were so loooong! But Kels and I had a few good times. Like listening to "Single Ladies" on backline and dancing. And playing Bun Baseball...

Friday I got my car back...which was awesome!!! Its so good to FINALLY have it back! I dont feel like a kid who needs to be driven places anymore:) Kevin came over tonight and we laid on the hammock and looked at the stars and had a good chat...i loved it! We will definitely have to do that more over the summer...

Saturday I worked 8-3. Then I helped mom clean the church. Found out some really horrible stuff thats going on at our church and had a crazy text convo with my pastor. I really hate to make assumptions. Went to the Carpenters to babysit @8. That was fun, the kids were fun and asleep by 10:45! haha..watched Shrek3...got home around 330am.

Slept in today and didnt go to church. I went to the Bluff...saw kev for a few min and then went to Findlay to get glue, crayons and a clear nosering for work...hopefully now Carp will gett off my back...lol. Got home and now im babysitting the brothers. Made a good supper and had a rainbow sherbert push-up! yay! And a week from today, I turn 19!

just called work and talked to Carp, I guess his girls really had a good time and he said i could come back! :) and he also mentioned that I work 11-7...again....wow Carp, thanks for ruining the night...

Im really excited for summer. So many things to do...fun things...friends come back from college, campfires, waterhose fights, roastin hot dogs and marchmallows...picnics, bike rides, swimmin, the lake...TOO MUCH FUN!

Well, im signin off...LATER!
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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

5 Days Later and $878 poorer...

Its been a while...5 days to be exact. A lot has happened but I really dont want to talk about it all.

Saturday was awesome! Opened then when I got off work I talked to my bestfriend Jacki! I havent talked to her in FOREVER. She met me and Kevin for Tu Pueblo and walked down to get ice cream. And hung out. It was GREAT! I miss Jacki so much and we never get to hang anymore. She loved Kevin, and said she definitely approves.. I think her and i , and maybe Kevin if he can get off, are going to see Sound of Music at the school on Saturday.

Sunday, Easter, was awesome! Kevin came to our church for the sunrise service @ 7 and stayed for breakfast til 9. Then after his normal church service he came over and went to my familys lunch. We went to Uncle Bills until 6. My family seems to really like Kevin....lots of people toold me that he seems really nice and polite. :) Then we went to his moms and sisters.

Monday I opened with Amber. Kevin took me to work :) I love him so much for that. We were really busy at work, especially for a monday. Kevin and i Made a list of goals today...here are mine
  • Save Money, no more crazy spending
  • Play my clarinet once a day...even if its only for 5-15 min
  • 130 lbs by June 1st
  • Look for apts.
  • Keep my room clean
  • Get Car taken care of
  • No More letting work bother me
  • Taking a more positive aspect in life

Thats what I got so far....I think its a decent list...And I have been doing really well with playing clarinet!

Tuesday...Tuesday was pretty blah...Opened with Dot. Kev took me again...which makes mornings so much better. Went tanning and came home and did nothing. Talked to mom for a bit. Then helped her clean the house. Went to Kevs and watched the Office. Which was awesome because thats what we always used to do when we werent dating. Haha. The good old days... :)

Todays a lazy day. I have a cold or something. Slept til 12:30 and had Captain Crunch for B'fast..mmmm...I like the berries in it! Mom came home from cleanign the church and told me that my car bill would be $878..!!! Wow..umm...But my parents are gonna help me as much as they can...Went tanning and went to pick up my check...but they werent in yet...but they are now..I have today off which is a plus...i guesss thats my one positive for the day :) Dont really have any plans for tonight. Church...but im not going because i dont want to make any old people there sick. Mom has a football meeting...but I may go to that.. The problems with our pastor at the church just got worse...but i think i believe him...I just dont know what to think somethimes...

Well, I better get going...To get my check...lets pray for a big one!

God Bless...

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Friday, April 10, 2009

-8 pounds

I feel like I live in Washington. Always cold, always overcast and raining. My uncle lives there, thats how i know. Also, thats where Twilight takes place. Which is what i happen to be watching now...as im babysitting my brothers. Which i seem to do a lot....babysit...not watch Twilight...Ive only seen it 10 times...geesh... :)

So, today was interesting. Got up around 6 am to babysit. But i ended up going back to sleep til Owen woke me up at 10. I dont really remember falling asleep last night. hmm....i seem to do that a lot.

I took Owen to see Hannah Montana the Movie today. It was really good! and had some really good songs in it as well. We had a great time. I love spending time with my brothers and ive realized that we dont get to go out as much as we used to.

Went to weigh in today. Lost 7.9 pounds. Im a little dissappointed, but oh well. I feel like ive been eating healthier and excercising more so thats all that really matters. Kevin and my parents did good too.

Came home and went to Bluff. Talked to John, Dot and Brian for a bit. Then went home and started babysitting.

Kevins out with his friends tonight. Lukes and bowling. I think him and i and Jacki are going to do something tomorrow night. Which makes me really happy because its been a long time sincce Ive gotten to hang with Jacki! I miss her! I guess shes going to prom this year...with a guy named Mark...whom i went to prom with 3 years ago...haha...jacki, me and another one of our friends gloria all took turns "dating" Mark in HS...I guess jacki didnt get her share! haha,...nah. they are great together...i told jacki to invite him...itll be a double date!

So Kevins coming to my familys Easter dinner. It should be fun! Sundays gonna be crazy tho...Getting up wayyyy tooo early. I think im gonna color my hair sunday morning too.. I have highlights and they are growing out so...back to the normal hair until I actually get enough money to do the highlights again...

So I was bored earlier and i started reading the last book of Harry Potter. Its the only book out of the whole series that ive only read once. I was just so dissappointed in it the first time...didnt end the way id hoped...oh well, what can i do?! but im reading it again bc i always find things in those books the second and third time around....

I open tomorrow..yuk. But Kevins taking me to work so at least the day will start out good...i open with amber so who knows how the rest of the day will pan out...

Imm...freeeezin so i think im gonna go...but...Ill probably be pretty busy the next 2 days...Ill try to blog but im not gonna make any promises!

Ciao!

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April 9th

Ya ya ya, i know, todays not the 9th...but yesterday was, so lets pretend it is the 9th.

Today I did 3 things...Got up, went to work, went to bed...yup, thats pretty much it..Got up around 10, worked from 11-8. Pretty loooong boring day...altho it was the busiest lunch we've had in a long time....crazy as it seems, i kinda miss busy lunches, they make time go by quiicker. Did a lot of cleaning before and after lunch. I had my boss convinced that Kevin and I broke up! haha...how mean am i...Kevin is off today...and tomorrow, and the next day, and the next....geesh...Last night him and i went to see Knowing...weird and strange...sad....weird...and did i mention strange movie? Then he took me home...he's so amazing and helpful with this car situation im in...Anyways the movie was fun....

After work i came home and put in a movie (August Rush). I love that movie. I remember the time Kevin and i watched it together. I dont think we were together yet..haha...a lot of times we hung out we werent together yet. Haha,. Having a secret relationship was kind of exciting...The first time I went to his apt. we watched Office Space. We talked for like 2 hours after we watched the movie...well, really, he talked...I was much quieter then...ahh...i think that night was when i realized that i was really into him...but since he was my boss, I didnt think it would be possible for us to date....but we started hangin out more and more...and 2 weeks later...he asked me out...i was at church and he was at work...i'll never forget it... :)

Anyways, I fell asleep while watching August rush...oops...and woke up at 6am...fun fun fun...

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Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Day Off!

Finally, a day off work. Well, I guess its only been 2 days since ive had a day off, but still, 2 days can seem like a long time...

Today my alarm went off at 7:30, and 8, and 8:30, and 9...haha...someone didnt want to get up! When I finally did get up, my grandpa came over. Him, my mom and I all went to Lima. It really sucked to go to the mall and not have any money to buy things. But it was still really fun....good time spent with family...who needs money anyways. It doesnt really make you happy. You think it does, but to be able to enjoy it, you have to have family and friends around too. And thats all that matters. We ate at the Chinese place in the mall...mmm...but with weigh ins coming this Friday, i feel bad for eating :( but oh well, Kevin is doing really good...and so is my mom...i guess i just lack motivation. Ive always had a but of a problem with that.

Got to see Kevin last night...that was Great! I love that i can be myself with him...i love him. He's been talking of moving to Florida for this church job. It scares me a lot that he will be so far away and it will be long periods of time where we wont see eachother...i hope that with our strong relationship and Gods help that we will make it through...and living in FL one day...that would be sooo amazing..its beautiful down there...and I dont want to be in Ohio forever...i just hope that my family understands when this day may come...

Helping Mom clean the church later. She pays me so its not that bad...I'll do anything for money these days...who knows how much its gonna take to pay for my car. Today i called them and they said it needed a new water pump and belt and hopefully the engine wasnt shot... :( great...so far, Ive got $100...haha...woooow...im betting itll be a lot more than that...

Night church later...which i am really looking forward to!!! Then who knows what else tonight.

Just watched American Idol, and Adam Lamberg is going to win....FOR SURE! I'm calling it now....

Oh, and if you are reading this, make sure to check out Kevs blogs too!
http://kevosrandomthoughts.blogspot.com/

Cya Later!

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Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Brrr...

Im pretty sure ive been cold alll day! Hopefully warm up tonight...

Work was great today...its always fun working with Dot! Plus a break visit from Kevie!

Went to a visitation today...A friend from works mom died...It made me realize how much i need my mom...shes my best friend no matter how much we can disagree...

Hopefully get to see Kev tonight...

well, i dont have time today...gotta go!

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Monday, April 6, 2009

Snow in April

WHY IS IT SNOWING IN APRIL!?!?!?

I'm trying out this new stay positive approach to life...so far...not working out real well. How do you stay positive when it seems like everything goes wrong at the same time. I guess im just thankful to be alive today. maybe i should think of a list of positives in my life...
-A great job (yay for a 92% on our basic today!!!)
-A great family
-Great Friends
-An amazing Boyfriend
-I am alive...
-Its my Birthday month...
-Easter this sunday

I have a lot to do tonight...so this is probably all I'lll write...boring i guess, but you"ll have that somedays...

family coming over wednesday...thats awesome...

Easter sunday this week...that should make this a more spiritual week...i hope it does. And I really do thank God for what he;s trying to do in my life...I'm sure one day Ill figure it out...

Sorry to all who have to put up with my lately grumpy mood...especially Kev...i love you

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Sunday, April 5, 2009

Wow...

Today, a totally laid back, lazy, carefree day. got up, went to church...church was great. and for once, i felt totally well rested waking up this morning. even tho i didnt really sleep that much the night before. and i somehow woke up at 5am and texted..(is texted a word?!?!) kevin...which i didnt even remember until i was looking back through texts. and with the mentioning of texts...Kevin will text me when im sleeping and i'll wake up and have these texts from him...and i absolutely LOVE reading them...

Anywho..had Dairy Queen for lunch...mmm...M&M BLizzard...extra M&M's...the best! not the healthiest...but starting tomorrow, is the last 5 days til weigh ins...so its time to starve...starting tomorrow...haha..

Next came a nap...i love naps!

Then...well...I think back for night church...which was awesome! I got to sit with my amazing friend whom i never get to see. and my mom. the 3 of us laughed so much....but its all good. when mom, emily and i get laughin in church...theres no stoppin. :)

Went and visited Kev at work. Em came too..i love surprise visits to eastgate...i hope Kev likes them as much as i love doing it. heat didnt work all the way home tho...then pulling into church to take Em back to her car, my car shut down...i was so scared...but i am so thankful to God for the great timing...in a parking lot...Pastor looked at if for a while...but he got so sick...with his MS.it really scares me and its so sad...anyways...ill have to tow my car...and as for opening tomorrow...i switched with someone so i dont go in til 1030. i hope my car works out and isnt too expensive...it really put me in a depressed mood...but thankfully i have an amazing boyfriend who is always there to cheer me up. I love him...soo much...

Its freezing in this room, so im gonna go to bed...

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Saturday, April 4, 2009

Hmm..Title? I guess Blog #1 Would Work :)

Well, I guess Kevin and I are going to start trying to bolg everyday! wow, i guess it would help if i could actually spell blog...haha.

Let's see, today, work...well was work...annoying people asking annoying questions. but i still love my job and appreciate you ,kev, everyday for giving up yours at the Bluff so i could keep mine...i truely love you!

Today, i've decided to not let all of the negative bring me down any more. because if you let it, it can take over your life. and i've realized that i have so many positive things to look forward to. i just need to keep my focus on those and things should be great.

I'm finally going to Owens to work out something for college in the summer hopefully. it was nice to have a year off. i got to experience work at Arbys at 30+ hours a week, spend more time with family and friends, and of course my amazing boyfriend Kevin. But im so ready to get back to school and be one step closer to figuring out what im doing with my life. Because right now, it kinda drives me crazy that i dont know where im going. And sometimes i think that id be ok with being at Arbys forever...but i know that just being "ok" with my situation isnt enough...ive learned that from other people. you have to go for what you want in life so that you can truely be happy.

I'm spending tonight babysitting my two amazing little brothers owen and evan. as much as we may fight...i love them sooo much! and as much as i could go on and on..i should get back to them.
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